It’s getting better. The flashbacks are becoming less and less vivid. I’m so thankful for that. Yesterday I drove down to Lancaster to go to the Cingular store for my cell phone.I had to ‘get back in the saddle again’ or I wouldn’t know what to do anymore. I get restless and maybe thats a weakness in me but seriously I cant sit in the house~ I’ll think too much which isn’t good. The cell was busted from the accident~ kept turning off or saying no service. They took a look at it and then said well the antenna was cracked and there was dirt up in it. What a wicked ride it had in the accident! And yes I did just say ‘wicked’. Anyways they told me I am eligible for a upgrade so i got this smaller, cute blue and silver one that’s color~ yeah baby! A little free present to myself for the trauma i went through.

My back still hurts and neck a little but honestly I woke up yesterday hardly feeling any pain. I keep reminding myself how lucky I am to be alive and not have so many injuries or pain. God has truly watched over me this yr even though I didnt notice it all the time. I love Him with all my heart soul and mind and am forever grateful for His divine providence in my moment of terror.

So the rents did some talking while i was at Aaron and Annie’s PA wedding reception last night and they came to 2 conclusions~ either I get another used car or lease a car like a Ford Focus or something. I am really leaning towards the lease because I am sick of having to put work in a car and get nothing out of it~ the Taurus’s engine went and I had to put parts here and there into the rest of the car and the Sable (may Sabs rest in peace) had a new muffler, water pump, pretty much getting to be everything new! but i really started liking the car eh well God has His reasons. So yeah I would love to have a new car for once and it would probably get me back on my feet and I could just buy the thing at the end of the lease or be in the position to get a new car anyways. So yeah that is the update of the terror and trauma of Tara’s life in the past 2 days….have a great sunday ya’ll.