I’ve been told don’t take life so seriously. Enjoy it. Well sometimes that’s hard for me. You see I’m a control freak. An organized to the tee control freak. I want to be able to have fun and relax but some things are hard. I worry about sooo much. I worry about money. I worry if we will ever get a house. I wonder if we’ll ever be able to be on the right track to have a baby.
I remember in high school and college all I worried about was if my latest crush would ever like me or if I would ever get a boyfriend or even get married. I should have just got the heck out of college and got my MRS degree as one friend said one time. I shouldn’t have even went to college if that’s all I was concerned about- I hated studying and could never concentrate. I often say now that I think I have A.D.D. and that’s why I could never concentrate. Ok back to the topic at hand. But if I wouldn’t have gone to college to friends of mine maybe wouldn’t have found each other.
I know I should start relying on God and let him deal with my anxiety because obviously He knows all and He knows what is going to happen. Sometimes I feel like I have to help things along or if I don’t do this or that it won’t happen. I am reminded of a passage in the Luke 12:21-23 that states- “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.”
Life is more than things that we worry about. It is about serving people and having a close relationship with our Heavenly Father. I need to keep reminding myself of this when I worry about the future. Because I know who holds the future and that is the King of Kings the Lord of Lords and the God of the universe! He is my Heavenly Father! and I am His child. How wonderful is that!
